by cindy bottenfield
I am dead
charcoal
thunderbirds nestled in my head
voices telling me ............
forget what I just said
together we may run in wolve packs
but when one gets sick
I am dead
I know what you mean
black sheep s god damn
rain clouds in the sky
a time to cry
By cindy bottenfield
Lady Godiva
Lady Godiva lost her clothes
She goes where the winds blows
In the streets she rode
Everything
was sold
HIgh taxes and king gains
Lady Godiva lost her clothes
And went nakes as a rose
Thrue the streets
By;cindy bottenfield
Red wagon wheels
Petals in the sand
Words in my head
Im on your hand
DRawing pictures
Making beads
Im nobody
Among the reeds
Waiting on God
By;cindy bottenfield
The vault of heaven bent golden rays on earth
The rivers twinkled and the angels was full of mirth
The grounds grass blades was wet with dew
The firstfruits of Jesus's truth
In the woods I watch a bird
Remembering all of god words
Repentance wears a veil
Walk these grounds walk these trails
Im no better than you
Your no better than me
Lets just be free
I dont mean to be pushy
By ;cindy bottenfield
So Far Away
On the shores of the waters troubles from the master......
Leaving heaven so far away
from the pasture I turn my back
dark clouds on the horizon
so far away
Memories of you Im sad
My sweet love, I wish I had that
My immortal god Im coming home
Leaving heaven so far away.
By; cindy bottenfield
In the still air voices run
Row Ras boat the celestial sun
Im alive
Vibrant energies expectan silence
Stay tuned with the city
The prisoner inside these walls is free
Up in the temple Monks are silent
And a old womans cross is bent
Voices whispers on leaves in spring
and disappear on the winds rings
Have you moved the rock?
Spare the hands of the golden clock?
Chasing words in memory praryer
I heard the annointed one
I just dont care
All we ned now is wolves feast
Who would go to gather with the beast?
By; cindy bottenfield
I awake and watch for day break
Closing my eyes I pray to my savior please rise
I need youe desperatly in my life
Come back and make it right
I carry your cross burdens to bear
Heavy to wear
Im tired Jesus please come back soon
I love you as I stare at the gentle moon
Waiting on tears are true
Im nervous I dont want to let you go
Ease my mind lord and let me know you care
By ;cindy bottenfield
the tarot cards empty wastelands when the tower card
is shown
the crystal ball shows a bridge with a light made from stone
the purple granite wand leads a old woman in prayer
Iraqi prayer beads pray for the Middle East symbolic care
Snow in April white and pure Jesus seasons are just
begginning
And hes coming back with his angels wings
By; cindy bottenfield
white beehive bloomes brokenhearted
hear me call
do you remember?alone in the pale moonlight
a man of sorrow teaching tommorrows
innocence of a girl paying pence
she wrote you letter
and spilled a cup of blood
ghost tells stories in dreams at night
that things are better than they seem
days wear on and I forget
I watch the President with pride and joy.
By cindy bottenfield
dark tree branches sway
in a grey ghost night
like opening a book
the winds
blew around me
redeption comes for me
like a ray of light
god sent his word to set me free
after all this bondage
and all these years
relief and joy I shed these
tears
god loves me finally
by cindy bottenfiel
Tower of Gold
the lighted stick swirled in front of my face
calling my name my head left this place
snorting my soul into my body whispered words
from the air; you
pig dreams but im just like my soulmate
im shackled and chained but im free
is this my fate
doing things for me calls me under
all this celebration of the earthly crowns
my soul cant fast i am trash
inspirations straw hats i am thinking i dont like
that
be gone memories are perfumed i dont want cosmic connection
to destroy my soul
its just a tower of gold
and a real good lesson
By;cindy bottenfield
There Calling Me Under
there calling me under
in the open grave of my mind
i stand at the mirror and stare at her
im on my knees my towns secrets
bind to heaven
almost perfect seven
there calling me under
for a celebration with the devil
sometimes this world is cruel
take it easy take it slow
let your love show
By; cindy bottenfield
troubles out on the mountain
in the dark robes of rocky sin
walk these hills and valleys
i pray to the lord, when
the late sun , my strongest trials has begun
victory wrap your arms around me
shed these robes and give me new clothes
morning comes with another day of rain
fresh wettness of heavenly blessings im sane for second
dear heavenly host , immortal king
remember me when you come I love you the most.
By ;cindy bottenfield
New Love
middle east hurry dawn bought time
gentle winds of your soul blows
behind the iman the quran is read
heaven can wait
new love grows
afraid because
i first met you
the higher plane when hunger is true
feelings show
By;cindy bottenfield
The Basilisk
In the old temple of the sun hung the basilisk
the lovers in the valley of union touched gentle lips kissed
the summer haze the sexual daze
the lovers said vows on there knees pray to Ra for blessings
In the valley of Sun
They was the chosen Ones
The circle is knotted into a lasting ring.
chersihed memories doesnt let dieing love grow old
but the windowed past
the flame never died but has gotten cold
children born and raised without mother or fathers love
just another sacrafice to Ra above
growing old, i go this way, you go that way
well meet again one day
By;cindy bottenfield
Demon
demon calls thru walls
im awake
if you dont like it just leave
its hard to take
redemption is mine
a dreaming state
my road to spirituality
my sealed fate
jesus back and
dreams of his face
my house my place
By;cindy bottenfield
Rain, Rain,Rain
the rain trickles from the sky an old indian stare
worship the ground, worship the sky
rain, rain, rain say a prayer for me
let my spirit fly like an eagle
show me how to dance with you
big spirit who I call
round and round in circles bring clouds
the big spirit speaks loud
rain,rain,rain I give you my all
just for you to bless me
By;cindy bottenfield
A Poem
I came alive with new heartbeats around you
stars collide I see your aurua
being with you is like a ferris wheel
starring into your eyes is looking into a wishing well
a kingdom of will has made you there son
the face of adversty changes.
By; cindy bottenfield
wondering if its tears or rain that wont stop today
so we can see a burst of rainbow or the suns rays
wondering if theres a heaven and my fantasy of elves
americas desires lies in hell
rains got me down
pearly gates and thorny crowns
wondering if volcanoes erupt so theres a sacrafice
and all the people who came to christ
wondering if theres peace in the world and the lands
war torn countries die at the hand
of murder
rain watering the ground and the fields
the bible somebody steals
nothing safe everything is sacrereligelious
even the pope think so
rain on black pavemnet at night glows and makes puddles
agents prostitute themselves and think its cool
wondering if at the end of the day
all the people whose story goes untold
who cares? who dont? whos so fucking cold?
wondering if in the middle of the night you wake from bad dreams
and you wonder why you believe.
By; cindy bottenfield
i am a god
who are you?i live in between.
planted on my hand the devils designs
two spiritual worlds brain activity im crazy
i am a god
lift me up i know the anger of the rod
fallen incomplete christ who beat me?
I know fear of the heavens and hells
earth is a shell
I dont know where I belong
I have no masters this is my song
by cindy bottenfield
waterfalls
its the beauty whats behind, the cave youll find
treasures from the past breathing on the walls
outside cascades of blue and white waterfalls
take me where i cant go
fresh drops and the warm sunlight glow
blues and greens elves lives in the trees
the key to earth lies deep
you got to reach
step past east
and look toward sin hes a god
and maybe youll find happiness,
the waterfalls are connected to the eagles
maybe one day ill go.
by cindy bottenfield
become yourself and grasp the soil
of your land,
far away in the lands of egypt
where the pharoes died
king ramsees HAS A SHROUD
camels take visitors for rides
in the tombs of the valley of kings
they search for abrahams body
they look for the arc
by cindy bottenfield
across town the dead plays,mmmm lay down your wallet
sing sweet bengellioils god miss me
in the room you fly zens couldrens minds sqweezed holy
i step bounderies fire you intoxicate
your purple
edge of lands,veins on hand, bloodshot eyes
im getting out of here
on the town you your lips are kisses and drinks
i breath in the air senses
and relief
day by day it gets better
i imagine it was a feeling
by cindy bottenfield
peace in the valley for me
crickets in my lazy house
i sit on stool and sing
its a breathtaking morning in spring
get off my back
and let me relax
beers tasting good
its been so long
i wish i could just have some fun
friends i miss
suns out
bluegrass playing loud in the house
lilacs smell good in the breeze
words i hear from nowhere
keep me chained
and keep me free
thats part of living
by cindy bottenfield
i do the best i can
i search for gods hand
thru it all in the dark days
i look for god to show me away
i know the pain the pleasures
of urgency
i search for cover when im ambushed
gods in the midsts of my camps
my tears are for him
my heart lingers on horizons in the sky
my head punds the pavement
i pick up my tattered pieces as i know my ears
fail me i am blessed
by cindy bottenfield
the value and headfucks
the cost
and mistakes wittnesses and marks
being strong its all i got
please god
the value of life
evils and transgressions
manfisstestations and temptations
i cant stand the thought
of holding onto the dark
sickness and desaeses im worried
this life ive been in a hurry
i love you jesus i havent done
anything wrong i deserve your love
scared because fears are real
timing to write mad
i need relief probably tonight
ill worship at his feet
by cindy bottenfield
forget
flames out of passion for the sake of the song
a old move listen to hillbillies
peace rides the motion yes im traveling for the night
lumps in throat pretty music i cant forget
did you
passing cactucsts and hiccupps
trampled treats my dog at my feet
another circus wheel of fun
coming to town
just to wish the bars been boarded
and the meals are free
the dust is bred and my souls quiet
im traveling thru the desert tonight
its for hire they call
wanting to know if i belong
when can i stay
ragged ears one day ill have control
of the dustbowls
its all makebelieve
by cindy bottenfield
be quiet rails time is screeming
my train is oh my god moving
the sun is shinning now i know
ideals are whiskey bottles
and living is streets and freedom suicide vitals
jester courts and evil words
satan attacks
curses
im riding rails and trains
my time is moving
in my head im far away from here
by cindy bottenfield
energies sung the song
it lasted a differant one
beat beat beat
who did we play with
jerry garcia
played the rifts
i listed to it to begin with
over and over
it was nice
my music plays differant tunes
i listen to them sing the blues
by cindy bottenfield
phillippian horses what do i want to be
santa fe my desires
are set on you
phillipian horses i want to be riding
the beautiful mares
sunset indian style i never knew fun
all the horses goes there
and college of miracles are telescopes captured stars
in the cool night i never want to leave there its alive
by cindy bottenfield
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gods hands fashioned me
bow soup mouth bread breaks the table
tequilla for the drunks to keep to there
ties of preachers say prayers
golden eagle dance spread your wings in the sky kiss me
dont you feel dirty the voices call
im at the cross
waiting on my lord to get there
by cindy bottenfield
free my soul
i care who it is the hardest part is to train
and follow rules without getting sick
free the words thats full of weight and thickness
that i utter in my head a camside fires only wick
sieze the darkness as i struggle with
limited vocabulary and heaping coals
keeps my eyes lowered but hopefully its
a illusion of the grand scheme of break through
of dillussions that keep me trying self prophecy
comes true and freedom justs a word
when im 60 ill be in a better space with my salvation
and my voyage to the skys if i know better
its just freeing my soul inside now
and travelling the road of betterhood of walking the narrow
line
by cindy bottenfield
the sqaw knelt cloved in the moon's supper
coyotoe say goodbye to dieing buffaloe hides
its just the wild prairie far away on the feathered wings
the indian brave embraced his sqaw kissed her flaws
the conterversary is over the head not whats being said
freedom is truded on by natural fears born
whats real and whats not imaginary lands brought back
to the palaces and arrows its respect of hidden time
and just a lovers coin
i pray for we cant turn back but we can capture beautys
hand in are hearts
by cindy bottenfield
a wizard watch faded into the fold
imaginary creations of a worlds that true
snaketails and treetops are in despair
the wizard goes into trance and drinks the chalet pair
on a cold night immortal one
fit for a king nobody sleeps tonight
he fast until he eats nobody eats until he bites
he stares at the stars because hes lovesick for his mortal fashion
and wants a wife in his mansions
the wizard prays to mother earth cause hes trying to break through
and be her desciple please heal his body and mind flew flew flew
its scarey like this somethings wrong
put your guns in the sand saint michael is home
yesterday is a patchwork of camps in the terroritory of the holy land
garden knomes and long hoses
trail fences and butterfly stenches
sunlight softly trickles thru
the magic of the sphere ball is cruel
visions are like time capsules
they only come in once in a while
hold on im saying a prayer
cleanse my house i care father
anxiety lies in my chest
whats going on i need to relax
fileds of passion on my cheeck I allow myself to think of you
A reality clouds my head I think clear
My hearts beating fast your prescense is gone from here
These days I cant get no sleep
Rock n Roll youll never be back
Destiny cards and towers pull us apart
I think my love is shinning in the dark
Special powers and living the dry creek bed rocks showers living in my head
brings tears of sorrow because I once loved you
by cindy bottenfield
CRACKED SURFACES around the edges rough hearts
violin vases hold the neck of the string cased box that hair falls in my face
for me to shave
elephant tears are the only reason im still here as i put down
my razor i hav e masceing tape for band aids
give me one last chance to dance with the angels ill call it a bloody night
of bathing in my own pool of salvation hood its just that simple
i believe
stardust glows like paper holes
god holds the world so little
hang the moon the big dipper
catches wishes and lives
in the big sky
the big cheese makes believe
there s a world of heaven
of and hail its majesty
deems hurry the nights gone
and the stars fought alone
capturing fireflies sundances ill give it another try
all hopes has died and im inspired by hearing the waves of
anotyhers mans wise words
to kill a mocking bird
voices direct and inspire lead me to another hire
path that theres something im missing
in this world something shades of grey
and wishing this walk is what its for ill apreciate it
the gold and the walls to see the sunlight
shinning thru my dark house it makes my eyes
a fiery light come on in jesus christ
im having supper that makes me scared of me
knights in white castles didnt have anything to do
they studied old maps and shined there shoes
looking out there telescope into the hills and swarways
they gathered courage for a ambush and a nother nights stay
somewhere else the knights in white castles thought it was pitiful
the way the hooligans fought and wanted to ground them out by
there snout
its a pitiful site the declared one afternoon while they drank beer
they waved a misteltoe mockingly the hoogligasns which ones will kiss them
this isnt fare the hooligans said knee deep in despair
they said it wont be long the lone rider will arrive and we will survive
the hues of the distance winds howls
im using an old rag to whipe my frown
purple flowers crest the towers
of the men looking down its just a dead mans
song
all along in my mind im acting funny
acting used the pipes played and someones
been thru the 60s
listen to glory rise and the song played its just for me
and my mind help me help me you pick me up like a child on a swing
your music is deep and husky i like
the american feel and i like the rusty wheels of my poem
i just dont know what to say angels and you i like
being alone goodby to happy endings
by cindy bottenfield
To A OLD FRIEND:
took a look in the lighted globe magic talons ties my robes
come back i whispher
i didnt mean to do that
in the swirls you stood with a monk hoods
thunder bolts strike the serpants fence the devils dense storm a ancient bowl
i remember you your like the sun and clouds mixed
with water and tea
what about you and me
took a look in the lighted globe
friends hands as differant as i am
searching for beginning
past is alive sweet memories i hide
my friend thanksgiving is a memory that
i survive with me and you and the turkey
on the table my friend
i live a life of mystery and alibys by cindy bottenfield
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